im all alone.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
school was as usual today. had computing UT though. hope i can scrape a pass.
after school, had archery. went with Wesley. got 1 senior is so idiotic. and forever with that stupid black face.
anyways, after archery, i felt so tired and drained. slept in the train, in the bus, and when i came home, before going out for dinner, i rested on the sofa too. in dad's van, i also slept. even right now, just after bathe, i feel like im gonna sleep.
just now in the bus, i saw a nice ticket, not creased or torn. looked brand new. suddenly, i remembered that i used to fold paper hearts for cecilia... unknowingly, i took the ticket, and began folding it. after it was done, it looked so nice. at that point in time, i really felt like breaking down and crying once more... but i was in public.. i had to hold back my tears. i left the ticket there, and went to sleep.
however, just before i alighted, i crushed that paper heart, and threw it onto the floor. i didn't want anyone taking the heart that i had made. the full reality that i was alone suddenly dawned on me.
im trying to get over you. and i think i can. yes, im alone. from tomorrow onwards, im gonna wipe off that "happy" smile on my face. i dun care even if my classmates think theres something wrong with me. i dun care. i just wanna be myself.
