The Past, a Turning Point, and The Present
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
well, had random thoughts, and so here's a random post.
i ask myself, who am i?
what i wanna be?
was thinking back about my past life out of the blue.
the days in secondary school. especially the lower sec days.
hanged out with friends, then trying to act cool...
always had room for chains of vulgarities in each sentence.
hahas.
trying to appear as though i've "been there, done that".
well, now thinking back.
i cant believe i was that way last time.
i guess this is wad happens when you mature and have a turning point.
you realise wad you are doing, and you grow out of your childish ways.
now, whenever i see an ahbeng-wannabe, i feel kinda sad for that guy.
it's himself he is disgracing, and it's himself he is putting down.
all i can hope is for that lil kid to meet someone who can guide him, which will be a turning point for him.
To err is human. As long as you know where you went wrong, it is never too late to turn over a new leaf.but sometimes, i wonder.
the way i am now, even though i am matured and all.
it's still kinda gangster-like.
im not a wannabe, but neither am i full-fledged.
im like caught in the middle.
sometimes i try to change myself, and try to be a really good boy.
but i always fail.
but im pretty happy with myself the way i am now.
i may include one or two vulgarities instead of a chain, i may appear to be like one...
but as long as i know deep down that i am not, i guess that should be fine. shouldn't it?
im searching for an answer. and im willing to spend as much time as i need to get that answer. (:
